Sunday, June 1, 2008

MY "RAY"

I was sitting at the bus stop the other day ... waiting in the killing heat .. and this boy of about 14 yrs came and sat next to me ... he looked at me and smiled ... i was taught that when someone smiles smile back .... i did too ... the boy was silent and suddenly started to cry .. wondering if it was my fault i asked him .. what the matter was ... he says ... "nothing "... no one cries because of nothing .. so i asked him differently ... i said "did u have a fight at home ??".. "no"came the reply... "u didn't do well at school??"......"i did ok in my tests"....then what is wrong why are you crying ??? .. did u do something wrong ???......"no no nothing like that" ........... then he stopped crying .. and he asked me my name .. i told him i was AISHUWARYA... he said he was RAY..he stayed right behind the bus stop and he liked sitting at the stop talking to people ... and he told me he liked aishwarya rai ......and salman khan ...... then he kept quiet ..... there was no sign of a bus .. maybe for a reason ...... he then began to talk ..... he asked me if i had friends ???.. i told him i did .. he asked me if i have lots of friends .. i said not lots but i have a few friends ....... and he smiled ..... he said "i have friends too ....... i have 5 friends ... they study in the same school i study in .... we r going to the tenth now" .......... his eyes were full .. he didn't want to cry .. he wanted to show he was strong ... but he couldn't control himself .. down came those tears .... and then he spoke ....... he said ...... "i am lonely .... i am lonely because no one cares"..... i told him his parents always will care .. he should go speak to them .......he said "... its not my parents ... i am talking about my friends .... they dont care .... i care so much about them .. but they don't ..... they have asked for my books i gave it to them ... they asked me for my toys i gave it to them ..... still they don't care ...... ".. i told him he should go make new friends ... he said ......"no. they are nice people .... but they aren't interested in me ......... u see when ur friends call u to ask u how ur day was u are happy no ???.... my friends dont call ... they dont ask to find out how my day was .... they dont tell me when something big happens .... they dont even tell me when they are playing cricket ........ i only take so much interest to call them and find out .when the match is ..........".. and then he began crying profusely ... i had a lump in my throat ........he went on "he said i tried very hard .. not to be interested too ... i cannot do it .. i like talking to them .... but they dont ....... thats why i am crying ............ i have a brother but he is very small and he has his own friends to play with".........i told him .. i would be his friend and we would meet at the bus stop on saturdays and sundays .. he agreed and smiled .... and believe it or not then the bus came ...... the next week i met RAY again and he was better ... he told me about his brother who had gotten fever and how he was spending time at home .............even though ray spoke to me with a little joy .. i knew there was something eating him inside .. i didnt ask .. i knew he would tell me when the time was right .............. the next week i went to the bus stop ... and waited for ray .... i waited for half an hour .. and something made me go to his house .... i went and his mom was there with his brother .... the house was small and quiet ..... i asked them where ray was and she started to cry ....... she told me ray had died .... he died in his sleep ........ he was crying about something but wouldn't tell his parents .. they thought it was a fight with his friends so they let him be .. he went to sleep crying .. and never woke up ........... ray did suffer from a disease ......it is called "LONELINESS"....

this post is to ray ... for telling me .. no matter what always reciprocate the interest or treat someone the way u would want to be treated .............

10 comments:

nids!!! said...

you moved me to tears... thats all i can say! brilliant piece babe! ummaah!

Robin said...

Hi there Kothi Pilla...
Reminded me of when I was a kid...I too was lonely coz then (I was in 7th standard -1990) mum nd dad decided to keep me in my aunts place so that I study in the same school..I was a LONER for a long time till I met my Baby(Thank God Never felt lonely since)...Nyways its really sad to go thru that experience...Must've been like a Huge rock thumping your heart every time you think of "RAY".. Its sweet of you my "kothi pilla" to share your experiences with US, Luv all that you do... Mmmmwwahhh

shuuuu said...

nids ..... thank u ... i was in tears when i wrote it ..... muaaahhhhh love ya

shuuuu said...

hey robin anna .. firstly as always thanks for reading my blog .... secondly ... man it mustve been difficult being lonely ... but not to worrry .. now u got ur baby ... and all of us .. INCLUDES KOTHI PILLA ....... heheh . for all the support .. and love and tons of friendship ........ ray was a sweet kid i dont think he deserved what he got .. he deserved so much more ... i love sharing my stuff with u guys .... muaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh to bboth of u .....

websush said...

oi fatty...this methinks is ur best piece yet...keep at it..especially in the memory of Ray. Keep goin strong kiddo...

shuuuu said...

heheh thanks susheeelll ....... yes this is for ray .... thank u thank u thank u .....

jona said...

umm ... u neva told me this..
or if this story is somewhere hintin at you, then we're sorry... hope you liked the maha lacto(s) ..

loneliness is always looking for a friend :) .. it does not wait by the door... it just sweeps right in..
(now im wonderin why i said the above lines ... hmm .. )
anyways... nice post.. very touchin ...
Touch chesavu - touch lo undu :P

shuuuu said...

to jon .... heheh thank u .. yeah never told u this for many reasons ..... actually because we werent undufying in the touch .. :P.... anyway .. very well said ... loneliness always sweeps right in ... for some its a feeling that goes away ..... for some it starts heartaches ....... thank u thank u thank u for commentin

Ashu said...

Aishu !!! This is too much man The disease you're talking about happens to everyone and the sad thing is that it really GOT this little kid. Thanks for sharing !!

shuuuu said...

:):) i'm glad u liked it ashu and yes i met that boy ... and loneliness is the worst emotion everrrr